Pijaaah; Shining Moments.

Me & My Best-Friend-Thing.

2010-09-26T18:50:00.002+08:00

Facts about me. Tada.

I hate it when I can't find my spectacle. Because when it's lost, then it'll be difficult to search for since I can't see well without it.

But what I hate more is my short term memory. Wouldn't it be a lot more easier if I can remember well where I put my spectacle in the first place?

In conclusion, I hate wearing spectacles. It make me obvious that I can't remember well. >.<"

Crazy

2010-09-25T10:27:00.002+08:00

I was 'crazy' back then... I have to admit it. And guess what.

I'm not intending to go 'crazy' again.

School re-open school, I wish I have more (playing/fun)time.

Enough said. Bye.

So...

2010-09-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

Somebody: What kind of guy do you like?

Me: I like Asim.

Somebody: K.

NB: This is fully malay-english-translated conversation between me and a friend. ^^

Well, because... It's been yearS, and I still like him. I mean, like, love. He's just perfect to me.

And if we're ever done/split, I'm sure that I can't ever find someone as perfect as he is to me.

Good night.

S.I.C.K

2010-07-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

I've been sick 3 times within this year!

WHY??? WHY ME????! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!????

Get well soon, me!

ANNIVERSARY!!

2010-07-01T00:18:00.008+08:00

This goes to my 2 beloved best friend ever in this whole wide world. ^^

Dear Sha and Juju,

HAPPY 4th YEAR ANNIVERSARY LOVES!

"If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me." - Unknown Author

I love you both, you guys are awesome! No words could describe how much you both mean to me. I love you, I love you and I love you. I thank Allah for having you guys as my best friend. ;)

Alhamdulillah...

Monday's Planning is... BORING.

2010-06-07T00:49:00.002+08:00

It's Monday again! I planned a very 'boring' day for today. ^^

I'm gonna fast today! Oh look at the time, it's 12:50 AM!! Yes I planned it, I'm gonna take my food later so I don't have to wake up at 4/5 later. Hehe.

And before that I'm gonna take a shower. Supaya nyaman tidur ku. Ahh, inda ku kira, mudahan jua tulang ku kuat! ^^

I'M GONNA WAKE UP VERY VERY LATE!! Hehe.

Well other than that, macam biasa lah saja.

From now onwards I'm not gonna let myself say "I am bored," (or at least try to). Hehe. I wanna believe that there's actually A LOT of things to do, so I am gonna do my best not to let myself be bored..

Bah, aku off! Mandi, makan, tidur!

Faizal Tahir - Hanyut.

2010-06-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

" Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu,

Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu,

Bagaimana ku nanti,

Bila tiada mengganti,

Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja... "

--- Faizal Tahir's Hanyut.

That's just... exactly how I feel! T__T

***

It's been 3 weeks and 3 days since I finish my second semester exam. And ever since that day, all I've been doing was... relaxing. It felt so comfortable that I've been seeing a lot of flashback... the days that I have go through to be able to stand where I am now... The problem now is that, I can't stop thinking, and it's annoying. ANNOYING WAH!

Well well at least when I was busy working on my study I won't have the time to remember all my past. I'd prefer having headache for my works rather that my past memories! AND WHY CAN'T IT LET ME GO? IT KEEPS ON COMING BACK!!!!!! ;@

So what I've been doing was...

facebook...

playing games...

sleeping...

eating...

cleaning...

baby-sitting...

... I can tell that I spend my time on sleeping almost half of the day. Hihi. I was bored, there's nothing to do, so aku pun tidur! Sudah tidur tu nada tia rasa kan bangun atu. Hihi.

Oh lately aku jadi kerani mama! To my surprise, it's pretty addicting. I LOVE helping my mom with her excel thingy. Aku suka, suka, suka!

Hm.. tadi petang, tutup karan arah our place. It last for more than 2 hours, I think. I rained all day long, Syukur tah malam ani inda hujan. :)

Okay I'm off!

D'Massiv - Rindu Setengah Mati

2010-06-01T11:45:00.001+08:00

" Berat hidup ini tanpa diri mu,

Ku hanya mencintai kamu,

Ku hanya memiliki kamu..

Aku rindu setengah mati kepadamu,

Sungguh ku ingin kau tahu,

Aku rindu, setengah mati "

-- D'Massiv's Rindu Setengah Mati.

This words are a bit exagerating though, but the main point here is I miss him. :)

***

Her cute smile. :)

23rd BIRTHDAY!

2010-05-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY

Abang Azuan

Wonder Girls - 2 Different Tears

2010-05-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

" Gave me 2 different tears,

After all these years,

Tears of joy, tears of pain,

Like sunshine and rain.

So I hate you...

So I love you...

So I hate you...

So I love you...

I'm tryna figure out how to move on with my life,

Without you by my side,

Wakin up with teary eyes,

I can't do this no more, gotta erase you now.

So I think of all the pain you've given me,

Try to look at all the damage you've done to me,

No matter how hard I try,

I just can't forget it why,

I keep thinking bout how sweet you used to be.

Gave me 2 different tears,

After all these years,

Tears of joy, tears of pain,

Like sunshine and rain.

So I hate you...

But the love you gave me was so so good...

So I love you...

But the pain you gave me was so so bad...

I'm cryin over you, still what does this mean?

Do I still want you back in my life?

After all these painful things you've done to me,

Why is it so hard to realize?

So I think of all the pain you've given me,

Try to look at all the damage you've done to me,

But the harder that I fight,

You come closer in my sight,

And I'm thinking of how sweet it could have been, oh no~

Gave me 2 different tears,

After all these years,

Tears of joy, tears of pain,

Like sunshine and rain,

So I hate you...

But the love you gave me was so so good...

So I love you...

But the pain you gave me was so so bad...

Why do I still feel this way,

When I know there's nothing left to say,

Shouldn't be but I loved you in the first place,

Wanna erase you without a trace,

Try to tell myself that I need to hate you,

With the pain that you put me thorough,

But ah...

That's the reason why I still miss you no matter how hard I try.

Gave me 2 different tears,

After all these years,

Tears of joy, tears of pain,

Like sunshine and rain.

So I hate you...

But the love you gave me was so so good...

So I love you...

But the pain you gave me was so so bad...

Gave me 2 different tears,

After all these years,

Tears of joy, tears of pain,

Like sunshine and rain.

So I hate you...

But the love you gave me was so so good...

So I love you...

But the pain you gave me was so so bad... "

--- Wonder Girls' 2 Different Tears

I don't need to explain anything. This song resembles my situation last year's July.

I'm so glad I made it through, and I'm able to be happy again, thanks to him. ^^

Will Young - Leave Right Now

2010-05-28T14:19:00.000+08:00

" I'm here, so please explain,
Why you're opening up a healing wound again,
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows,
But if I lose the highs at least I'm spared the lows.
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm? "

-- Will Young's Leave Right Now.

I somehow remembered my past as I was listening to this song. I often questioned myself... Why would he come back after hurting me so much? Why am I giving him another chance? How could I still be happy with him? Why is it I am very happy when I'm with him?

The answer, I think, is very simple - LOVE.

Yes, of course I'm scared if he's gonna break my heart again. But now all I care is spending my life with him, so that I won't regret it later when one day I won't be able to see him again.

Hurt me all you want, but I don't think I'll be able to love somebody else.

I might be arrogant or stubborn, really, I just want to keep on loving him.

Simply because... it makes me happy.

Note To Self: AVOID PROCRASTINATING!

2010-04-25T17:26:00.003+08:00

JUDITH BUTLER! Please be nice to me, or at least to my mark! ^^

Me and Betty working on AG1402 Masculinity and Femininity reports. This, well, thank you to our procrastinating attitude. We barely had our sleep.

I got back home earlier by myself today. Sorry for leaving you behind Bet. Hehe.

2009-12-01T22:45:00.001+08:00

I'm going to abandon this blog...
T__________T

but hey, I'm now on Tumblr.

Pijaaah, please click me!

Goodbye! ;)

SCRATCH THAT!! ^^,

I am back!

2009-11-29T19:09:00.004+08:00

Aku inda demam lagi! Hehe! Isn't life great? HAHAHA?

If you got fever, here's some tips! XD

1) DO NOT DRINK ANYTHING COLD (or anything from the refrigerator)

2) Drink a lot of warm water.

3) Eat up your medicine lad.

4) Have someone to look after you. You know you'll feel much better then.

5) Get enough rest.

6) Stay away from cats (optional, hehe, I think I got one because of taking care of Abang Juan's cat, LOL!)

7) Eat something nice and healthy.

8) AVOID EATING SNACK AND DRINKING FIZZY DRINKS.

And thats pretty much of it. Haha, perasan aku ah!

Off now. Assalammualaikum!

2009-11-28T20:16:00.004+08:00

Aku is demam!!

Thank God aku abis exam sudah. Selalunya aku demam masa exam.

Had running nose and I felt a slight head ache when I wake up in the morning. Despite the warm surrounding, my nose is running? Heh, I knew, from that moment, I am going to have fever.

And the first thing that Abang Azhar said when I told him, "Zar, Pijah demam," is... "Pijah hostel-sickness?" HAHAHA! MANADA KALIAH!

Okay, I am off then.

Assalammualaikum!

2009-11-27T20:37:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha...

Sayu rasaku mendangar takbir raya. Semoga roh arwah nini dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fatihah.

2009-11-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

I.
Miss.
You.
Too.

BUT...

2009-11-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

I went to the zoo for the very first time today! Exciting eh?

Met a lot of wild animals (did I say it right?), and many I haven't seen before. I almost cried seeing them being prisoned, well maybe for all of their life. I was imagining my situation if I were them. I would always think about wanting to die, every single day.

I'm saying all this stuff but I didn't even do anything right for them.

Thinking about them, it makes me feel ashamed of being a human.

Enough said. Back to work!

Oh yea, I suck big time during the test. I think I'm gonna fail it. Life is never easier, so yeah. Shut up. Just live on.

2009-11-13T10:20:00.002+08:00

I'm at the library doing my research.... and also facebook-ing.... and tweet... and other sort of distracting website if you know what I mean. Yes yes, I AM DISTRACTED.

I am suppose to be buzy. I got a test and a fieldtrip to Louis Mini zoo tomorrow. Then I have another test coming on Monday. And despite all that, I still have to 2 report to be done and submitted by Thursday.

Enough complaining.................. I'm off!

2009-11-09T03:28:00.002+08:00

I'm going to have a tough week......

Monday.
a.m - Went back to hostel.
p.m - Disc. Math. (probably) last lecture. & Bio 'field-trip' to a mini zoo somewhere in Lamunin I heard. Finished at 6.

Tuesday
a.m - Disc. Math. Tutorial.... & Comm. Skill Presentation!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday (My 'buziest' Wednesday since sem start, LOL)
p.m - SHBIE Lecture & Disc. Math. Tutorial.

Thursday.
a.m - MY SHBIE PRESENTATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & Baby Amirah's first birthday!

Saturday.
a.m - SHBIE Nature of proof in Math. TEST!!!! 2 hours of lecture for Bio.
p.m - (I am hoping that there won't be any lecture on this day as we're done with the topics. If so, YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!) Disc. Math. Lecture from 4 to 6.

Monday.
p.m - Disc. Math. LAST TEST BEFORE THE EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So many thing is going on at one short time. I am getting nervous.

I really really can't wait this sem to end!

2009-11-05T17:16:00.001+08:00

2009-11-01T09:13:00.000+08:00

I woke up with surprise this morning, with the thought of me being kidnapped. The truth is that I'm at home, and I thought I'm at the hostel. I guess I'm now getting used of sleeping at the hostel. Hmm..

2009-10-29T12:05:00.001+08:00

I don't want to be greedy anymore...

I'm going to try forget everything... or at least try to forget it...

2009-10-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

I am disecting a cricket for the first time during today's biology practical. How do I feel about that, if you ask me, is that... Well, firstly I was like, "EWWWWW," but later I found out it was quite interesting. I even ask for more! Hihi!

Pity those insect... I am torturing those hopeless little thing. It was dead at the first place though, so no harm!

And it's the first time that we haven't finish our practical before Magrib. We're still in the lab when the azan broke in!

A M A Z I N G ! ! !

2009-10-24T20:34:00.003+08:00

Today is my best Saturday so far.

SM1301's students were told that the test is being postponed until next 2 weeks. We will be seating for the test on the November 2nd. Life is so great, hihi. For now, that is. Hmph.

I'm staying at the hostel tonight, this time with Betty. We got this assignment to be submitted next Thursday and we haven't even touch it. Hihi. This thing needs to be work out together...

And we're currently at the canteen. Menikmati jamuan sambil online. Yes yes we're being distracted by facebook and youtube. Hehe.

We'll have to go back to our room at 9. It's raining!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-23T07:02:00.003+08:00

So many things to do within so little time. Again, blame me for being a procrastinator.

On Monday October 26th, I'm going to sit for my SM1301 Discrete Mathematics test. 3 topics - and I haven't even finish revising one.

I have a assignment due this upcoming Thursday for my ED1413 Nature of Prove of Mathematics module. It was a 3 weeks work assignment, but hell, curse myself for being lazy!

I need to start working for my presentation and 2 reports on my ED1410 Mathematics for Enrichment module. I'm going to be the first one to present next 3 weeks, and I need to work very hard on it as this module is 100% based on coursework - yes, no exam - and yes, it means that I may fail if my presentation suck big time. Urgh.

My previous test and reports for SB1201 Diversity of Life module was... how should I say this... unsatisfying? I so need to start working hard to pass this module.

I AM SO LEFT BEHIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

Seeing my family once per week... Now I learn to appreciate them. Being at home only once per week... I don't want to go anywhere when I'm at home. Let me feel the warmth of being home.

Having a tough live... the only people to turn to when I feel like breaking down is my family. I prefer not to become a burden to my friends...

Laughing seems to be the 'penadol', it smoothen my pain. But only for a while.

I wanna cry like I used to... but I just can't. A part of me won't let me.

I think.... I've become a new person. I can't find the old me within this body of mine anymore.

The world is a scary place to live in... The people... being selfish. Even me myself, being selfish.

How much time do I have left?

2009-10-18T17:41:00.002+08:00

I miss you like crazy!

For each and every day that passed by, I tend to become more greedier. I'm addicted to have my heart beat fast, but I wasn't suppose to feel it by someone who I have never had conversation with.

This feeling of mind says that... I wanted to at least try and approach him, but in the same time, I don't even want to. The contradiction in my mind.

***

I thought time will heal my pain.
I thought everything is going to be okay.
I thought I'll never need you in anyway.
I thought it'll better for us to be this way.
I thought after some time I'll never look back.
I thought, I thought and I thought...
I thought about you a lot.

BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT EVERYTHING TURN OUT TO BE A LIE.

2009-10-16T13:29:00.007+08:00

I'm finally seeing the beach after more than 2 months. I used to like the beach a lot, but now... not so much. What I did there was jogging with my abang Azhar. I woke up at 6 and then I went straight to him to wake him up. I swear I saw his I-don't-want-to-wake-up look on him face. HAHA.

A hour of working out, oh my, I wish I could keep this up everyday or twice/three times a week. I'm just lazy............ hmph.

And the picture on the left <---, if you wonder what's with that face, well, you should come down here! SILAAAAAUUU! HAHA.

Yes yes, I'm getting chubbier. And darker. I admit it. Urgh.

And and and, presenting, the picture of my baby! Hihi.

I LOVE YOU CUTIE!

I'm going back to my 'other world' later at around 3 or 4 PM.

I'll be back, stay tune! Assalammualaikum!

2009-10-15T21:27:00.004+08:00

The title of this should be...
THE MAYBE-STUPID THEORY

LOL.

I came out with the theory why Mr. F is acting 'that' way with me. And he is a crush. Minor. Hihi.

1/ I am just making a big deal of it, or in other word, AKU PERASAN! HAHA.
2/ He likes me.
3/ He thinks that I am a weirdo.
4/ I seems familiar to him thus he keep on figuring out who I am, thus, 'that'.
5/ He did 'that' to almost everyone? Hm, is this even possible??

I'll add some more if I came up with something new. Hehe.

I'm not gonna end this post just like that. I better put up some more theory... Hehe.

What my ex thinks of me. You-know-who.

1/ He still loves me BUT we're still to young, so he thinks that we both need spaces before thinking ahead.
2/ He no longer love me.
3/ He hates me.
4/ He is confused.
5/ He was afraid of hurting me even more.
6/ He loves someone else. [If this one turn out to be a fact, I'll be the saddest person on earth.]
7/ He's bored of me.
8/ He hates me.
9/ He hates me.
10/ He hates me.

And I really think that he hates me.

What's worst is that I still love him, care about him. And I kinda like that fact. Hmph. Boy, I need you to know that I miss you. I miss you so much that I'm so sure that I'll be dead if missing someone is some kind of disease.

2009-10-11T18:30:00.003+08:00

I am at the Female hostel's canteen, and I've been here all alone for one long hour.

I am starving right now yet I don't feel like eating. No no I'm not controlling my food intake what so ever, it's just I feel so upset.

And I'm upset basically because I've been planning on a lot of things to do today, well most of it was reading and try to catch up on my studies, but I failed. I started reading at 10 in the morning, and not long after that I'm already sleepy. So I dazed off for a while but I took longer time on sleeping than reading. Urgh. Then at noon, the same thing happen. Hmph. This is so depressing.

I think I'll have to sleep late tonight. I don't care if I'm sleepy or not, I'm free all morning tomorrow anyway. I will try my best-est not to sleep while reading this time!! I AM SO GOING TO SLAP MYSELF HARD IF I DID!

Bah, I'm going back to my room then. Gotta perform my prayer.

Oh yeah, did I mention I haven't got back home for one whole week? I am seriously missing my mom. I'll be back on next Thursday, Insya Allah, if my schedule allow. Hihi. Macam orang sibuk saja bunyiku atu bah.

2009-10-03T22:05:00.004+08:00

FOCUS!
CONCENTRATE!

There's so many things to do in so little time. I'm so lost in time. I let myself stuck in the world of procrastination. I really need to catch up. Only that there's always distraction and obstruction, delaying what I wanted to do at the first place.

I can't fail this.... I don't even want to fail.

2009-10-02T13:51:00.000+08:00

I'm suddenly confuse with my feeling towards Mr. F.

At one time, I feel nothing.
At one another time, I'm being all hyper after seeing him.
Then I feel like I want him.
And again at one time I he didn't even appear in my mind.

Fooling around eh??

2009-10-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

My dad is on the news.
Or his name I should say.

2009-10-01T13:46:00.006+08:00

Mood; Average?
Feeling; I feel hungry.

I'm currently in the hostel's canteen. Yes yes finally the wireless connection is being set up here. The bad news is that it's hot.

And hence I came up with the idea of 'petang yang panas'. HAHA.

Appreciation

2009-09-23T12:45:00.002+08:00

I'm that girl, still living, still smiling, still doing her best.
Living each and every day without you...

This freedom, I should appreciate it.

Salam Aidilfitri 2009

2009-09-20T21:09:00.004+08:00

Few years back, I know this one person whom I can tell that he's the happiest person on earth to celebrate the first day of Syawal, and if he won't be able to, then he's the saddest person...

That person... I wanted to know how he's doing right now... I miss him so bad... I'm not texting him not because of my ego, but I'm afraid that I'm going to have false hope... It took me a while to recover, and I must say that I'm not fully recover yet, so I don't want to let the pain get any deeper...

I'm just going to pray for his happiness... Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart.

Dear family, friends and all Muslims,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

The story of my life. Oh well.

2009-09-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

Beralih musim ke musim
Hati tetap serupa
Tiada yang berubah
Dari hari dikau pergi, dikau pergi

Penjara, hidup ini penjara
Tanpa ada simpati
Kepada sang kekasih
Yang dilanda, yang dilanda kehilangan

Masih jelas setiap garisan halus
Bila senyuman kau ukirkan untukku
Masih jelas setiap lekuk penjuru
Menghiasi wajahmu waktu kau renung aku

Ratib sendu
Bergetar dalam kalbu
Hingga menitis linang
Dari kelopak mata
Keranamu, keranaku dipisahkan

Masih jelas setiap garisan halus
Bila senyuman kau ukirkan untukku
Masih jelas setiap lekuk penjuru
Menghiasi wajahmu waktu kau renung aku

Masih jelas setiap garisan halus
Bila senyuman kau ukirkan untukku
Masih jelas setiap lekuk penjuru
Menghiasi wajahmu waktu kau renung aku

Sudah suratan takdir begini
Segalanya sementara
Selagi hayat ku masih ada
Kau bertakhta di hatiku

Beralih musim ke musim
Hati tetap serupa
Tiada yang berubah
Dari hari dikau pergi, dikau pergi
Dikau pergi

A song by Hafiz entitle Masih Jelas. This song clearly tells about my inner feelings.

I hope you did well out there dear. I miss you like hell.

Procastination....... Urgh!

2009-09-04T11:03:00.001+08:00

I' currently at SHBIE. Konon kan buat keraja, but................................

I ended up watching SuJu on variety show. I miss them so much that I can't resist! The wireless connection was really superb here in the very morning, I even manage to finish watching one whole episode!! Pheww!

My LE 1501 work... is complete though. I hope. Need to discuss with other members in my group saja lagi... Um...

I have trouble with sleeping last night.. and the previous night. Probably because I slept for more than 2 hours at noon. Hmph. I woke up early today though, at 6.30 am. And I did my laundry. Hihi. What disappoint me is the weather.

At 9, we went to SHBIE. The weather didn't look that convincing, so before going to SHBIE, aku bangkit baju dulu. Takut ku hujan. Tidak cali itu. Hihi. And here I am now~

Later at around2, me and Betty will go to The Mall. Accompanied by Betty's boyfie, Endey. I guess I'll be a loner tah ni karang, hihi. We're going to watch a movie! I love you, Beth Cooper! And K-Boxing! And for the first time, breaking the fast together. Hihi. Thank you in advance dearest sebab inda tinggali aku dihostel seorang diri. Hihi.

I'm going to end my post now. Will upload the pictures some other time. Happy Friday peeps. Assalammualaikum.

Malam hari Juma'at

2009-09-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's a day off yet me and Betty spend our night doing our works. Urgh.

Why?

Pasal besuk kami jalan liat wayang. WOOT WOOOOOOOOOT!

Malam Hari Jumaat.

2009-09-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

Tekun Betty buat kerja pasal esuk ia kan jumpa boyfriendnya! Hihi.

Tomorrow's Friday but still the both of us spend our night doing our assignment. I keep on yawning, but I can't even sleep well when I went to bed.

It's getting tougher and tougher each and everyday... without you.

Hai Betty!

2009-08-31T21:21:00.001+08:00

Muka urang kelaparan menunggu makanan.
Hihi.

Love eh?

2009-08-27T16:08:00.001+08:00

Betty: Fi, aku lapar.
Me: Asta, makan tah.
Betty: Tapi kau puasa.
Me: Inda papa eh, aku inda lamah sangat ni..
Betty: Eeee..
Me: Lagipun aku kanyang lapas terliat si _____ tdi.

HAHAHAHAHA!
Jawapan urang yang dilamun cinta!
Not that I fall in love... I'm just.. enjoying my life to the fullest. Hee.

My first day... Umm...

2009-08-27T10:34:00.004+08:00

It's the sixth of Ramadhan. People are starting to get used of being hungry and all... but me... I am a beginner. Oh well, welcome again, my-never-success-mission-of-losing-weight. Hehe.

I AM FAT, THAT'S A FACT! >.<

P/S; Sha, bila lagi dating? LOLOLOLOLOLOL! =D

What's new dude?

2009-08-23T11:52:00.005+08:00

I missed the first day of fasting. Enough said.

I've been working on my studies since I got back home last Thursday. Thanks to the modem which is struck by the lightning, I was able to concentrate. Haha. Many bad things happen when I'm not here I suppose, and it involve money. Hmph. Aku balik rumah dan mendapat tahu bahawa computer, modem and wireless rusak. Kana sambar kilat. And hence, $.$

And now that the wireless is working, I barely started working on my studies anymore. Haha.

What's new...? Okay, this Saturday we SM 1301 students will be seated for a test. I guess it will be a simple one, just like the tutorials. I mean, I wish it will be exactly like the tutorial. Haha. I've started reading on the notes, but haven't started memorizing and practicing yet. I still have plenty of time though, but knowing me as a procastinator... I better start working on it tonight. Hehe. My first test! I can do this!

My legs... still hurt, badly I must said. Despite having them massaged a few days ago. Hmph. They need to get better soon, otherwise I'll have trouble going here and there.

Oh, I need to let this out. Hehe. Having used living in the hostel, I'm used to the food too. Hehe. Inda ku berselera tarus balik rumah. My bad... My oh my, how am I suppose to lose my weight! And my fat belly! Urgh! HAHA!

I'm going back to hostel later. I choose to go there earlier. There's a lot of distraction here in my house - TV, wireless, and my cutey baby Amirah. So I think I'll be able to concentrate once I'm back to hostel.

And I decided that I'd bring my rabbit dolly along to the hostel. Just to make my room looks livelier. I got it when I'm in form 2, I think. From dad. Hehe. Hm... I somehow miss Baby and Adik, but I refuse to touch them. They, I should name them virus. They're killing me inside.

I manage to live on, me myself was pretty surprise. I thought I can't live without you. And guess what, I think all those love saying, poems, quotes, and songs... are absurd. Don't let them fool you.

I shall go. Assalammualaikum.

Ya Ramadhan.

2009-08-22T13:51:00.001+08:00

Ramadhan kembali!

Semoga puasa kita diterima oleh Allah S.W.T, dan semoga mendapat pahala yang berlimpah-limpah dibulan yang mulia ini.

Friends, cousins, family, anyone, and especially to you-know-who-you-are, I am sincerely asking for your forgiveness, for any wrong that I've done. I believe everyone deserve forgiveness.

Aku mau online buh.

2009-08-20T10:53:00.003+08:00

I'm currently in the UBD library.
I miss browsing through the internet.
I'm going back home later afternoon.
I think our internet connection at home is not working.
I hate it when this happens.

KAN ONLINE JUA KU NI!

LOL!

I feel so blue.

2009-08-19T22:48:00.003+08:00

Yeah, the title... I by chance used a lot of blue today, and it was very very unusual.

Pagi untuk kuliah aku pakai baju kurung kaler biru.
Petang untuk ECA aku pun pakai baju t-shirt kaler biru.
Malam untuk makan malam dan tidur pun aku pakai kaler biru.

Today... I accidentally dropped my keys (the key to my room at home and the key to my room at hostel, they are attached to each other of course) at... I don't want to mention this but it dropped at an EWWWWW place. Hmph.

Another highlight of the day is that... I dazed off in SHBIE building at noon. I don't have any idea why I feel so sleepy. I woke up having a headache. Urgh.

Yeah another one. I registered my name for aerobic club and the workout started today at 5 pm. It was..... GREAT! Keluar paluh! Hehe. I'll definitely become slim if I'm gonna keep this up. Hehe. I DESPERATELY NEED MY FLAT STOMACH BACK!!!

However....

My legs hurt so bad. I think it was the after-effect of the orientation last Sunday. Moreover, me and Betty went jogging around the campus yesterday...

It'll be great to get my legs massaged. By that I mean RIGHT NOW!

Till then. Its raining outside. With thunders!!!! Bye!

P/S; Aku rindu Sha... Take care Sha love!!

&& My heart beats again. My heart is still alive!

Quote.

2009-08-14T14:35:00.003+08:00

Aku kan balik hostel lagi ni.

Why should one complain about something he/she wants?

SHUT UP.
LIVE ON.

S.I.N.G.L.E

2009-08-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

I don't mind not having any man to love.
But I mind getting my heart hurt, again.

I AM SINGLE,
did I tell you that already?

I don't miss you,
how I wish it could be true.

I wanna be a pro.

2009-08-09T20:14:00.001+08:00

Oh Monday. My Monday is tiring.

I have no class in the morning, so I spend my time doing laundry. And I did my Mathematics Tutorials too.

My class started at 12, which is Mathematics.... I was... I don't know how to say it... Blank? Blurred? Either way, I dislike today's topic...

My next class was at 2, so as soon as we finished with Mathematics, we went straight to FOS. Today's class was..... How to say it… Panicking? We need to submit drawings of fungi and algae by 5 pm, before we leave. Not just that, we are preparing the slides, look them through the microscope, and refer to the books for labeling, jot down their properties/function, calculating their magnification… all those needed to be done within less than 3 hours… There are more than 10 kinds of fungi/algae… so it was confusing. I hope I’ll be a pro soon. I wish.

My Sunday!

2009-08-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

I spend my Sunday morning on doing my assignment... and a wee bit of surfing, oh well, facebook to be exact. Hehe.

Went back to hostel at around 3 and safely arrived there at 4. I need to get my work printed, but I found out that the installer was not with me. FYI, I brought the printer on Friday to the hostel, and I haven't notice since today that the CD was not there. So I ended up writing them instead of printing. Spent less than 2 hours doing that, I think.

I waited for Betty that night. She arrived late, at 9, It think. And by then the canteen was closed. So my dinner..... Thank goodness somebody's still there, so we both use the coupon to buy drinks. By drinks it means 8 cans of drink. Cool, no? Hehe.

I ate pop mee and baby clam for dinner, err, which was unusual for me. It was unhealthy too. But nothing can be done... so, NO COMPLAIN! Hehe. My bad…

Changes...

2009-08-08T20:22:00.004+08:00

So now... my schedule looks like this.

Tadi aku balik rumah ikut Juju. Thanks dearest!

Oh please somebody need to nag me about my assignment! I am not done with it.

Malas cakap.
Off.

Off.

2009-08-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

AKU ADA KACAMATA BARU!

&&&

AKU BALIK HOSTEL LAGI KARANG!

&&&

AKU MESTI MENGERAJAKAN ASSIGNMENT NI!

Malas cakap.
Off.

Home, home sweet home.

2009-08-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

I AM FINALLY HOME!

So today...

Just like any other day, I followed my daily routine - wake up at 5, take my shower and did my Subuh prayer. Then at 7, we went downstairs to take our breakfast. Our class started at 8, so after we're done with eating, we went to SHBIE.

I love the lecturer. Hehe. She's one in a million.

Lapas habis kelas, kami pulang hostel. My next class is at 12, so it's time to take a rest. Juju got home early, since she don't have any class to attend to...

So, me and Betty went to SHBIE again at around 11. When we arrived there, the class was empty. But not long after that, Zar datang! Did a little bit of waiting but still no sign of other students and even the lecturer wasn't coming... So kami pergi cari Program Leader, I think and we were told that this module were 'ditiadakan' because... you know, the number. Hmph.

Balik hostel, aku pun tidur. A hour after that, Betty baguni aku. Katanya ia keburingan. Haha. Kesian dey loh Bet!

Aku berjanji sama Zaim hari ani, aku ikut ia balik. So I'm waiting for him, he told me that his class finish off at 4.30 PM. Tapinya pukul 4 atu sudah ia text aku. So... yeay! I'm going home!

Balik rumah, liat TV, main sama baby, mandi, makan, liat TV, surfing, tidur. Sah inda siap assignment! Hmph.

Another day off... and I feel..

2009-08-05T19:48:00.001+08:00

Another day off... It didn't feel good..

Betty is having her class this morning, leaving me and Juju behind. We watched Super Junior Intimate Note, the one I downloaded from youtube a long time ago. Eh, we watched some MV first, lapastu barutah liat SJ. SJ's show make us burst into laughter! Cali!! HAHA!

By the time Betty finished her class and arrived at hostel, we're still watching it. Haha! Even Betty yang inda kenal SJ pun ketawa-ketawa meliat that show.

We have another briefing at the hostel this afternoon, this time from Fire and Safety department. Won't say much but I think it was a hot day.

Though having a day off... I felt tired.

A day off, yeehaa!

2009-08-04T19:41:00.005+08:00

The 3 of us have Communication Skill I class today, and we went there just to find out that the class was canceled. Buh! Which means....

A DAY OFF!

Kami mengisi masa lapang ini untuk membuat kad pelajar UBD. Tapi kami pusing-pusing dulu, by that I mean, balik hostel dulu, then jalan ke ICTC. Hoho. We finished in no time, and balik hostel semula..

I can't remember what we did the whole day... Most probably sleeping or talking to each other. Hehe.

First day.

2009-08-03T19:09:00.005+08:00

No class in the morning. But still I woke up early, to train myself. Juju too. Kami bangun pukul 5, mandi, lapastu tidur balik. Haha!

At around 7, aku bangun lagi. Me, Betty and Juju then went downstairs to take our breakfast. I can't remember what we're doing the whole morning, but I think we're together all the time.

Mathematics class started at 12 so by 11, me and Juju get dressed and ready to go. Bye Betty~

So, the class was...

As soon as we enter the main CLT, we were introduced to this topic, but not to this lecturer. So... we're quite blank and blurry to begin with, we can't really hear him. But we somehow get adapted with it as time goes by. I think the topic was awesome. For now, that is.

Finished at 2, and we went straight to FOS. Kan sasat kami dua Juju cari class, but managed to get in there in no time with the help of Mayyer. However, little did we know that this is our first practical class. Haha. And we're told to finish off our assignment about this practical and submitted by next Monday. Hehe. The practical was.. yeah not that bad. I always enjoy doing experiment, so I don't think I regretted taking this core module. We're done and dismissed at 5, I'm glad we finished early.

We have a briefing to attend at 7.30 pm about smoking if I'm not mistaken. So before going there, we ate our dinner. Lapar ah lapas abis kuliah. Hmph. It would be a lovely night if we're not sleepy and tired after our first day of coming back to school! I enjoyed the drama though, it feels like watching a TV. Haha. It ended at 10, I think. Balik hostel laju-laju and... Zzzz.

We're always together today. Like, bangun sama-sama. Mandi sama-sama. Makan sama-sama. Jalan kuliah sama-sama. Hehe.

This is how my schedule looks like.

2009-08-03T06:42:00.003+08:00

I was hoping that I can exchange Thursday with Saturday. I wanna go back home early every Saturday!! But 6 pm??!

Okay, no complain! Stay positive! Hehe!

I'm moving out?

2009-08-02T13:29:00.001+08:00

I hope I don't miss anything.
Woah, I don't feel good about it.

Sha's special day.

2009-08-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

It's August 2nd...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST SHA!

First off, I wanna let you know how grateful I am to have such a beautiful friend both inside out like you. You've been there in time of happiness and sadness, being there for me. I'm glad we're best friend!

But I'm sorry I can't be there at this special day of yours. I promise I'll make it up and treat you soon, okay?

Have a great day dear, I believe you already had. Hehe.

Wishing you all the best in UITB and your future. May God bless you dear.

- Fie.

Shopping.

2009-08-01T19:34:00.001+08:00

Shopping...

And my to-buy list and to-bring list is done! One tenth of it esuk lagi bali. Phew~

Oh..

Hello August!!!

Simple!

2009-07-30T19:40:00.003+08:00

Today... I went to UBD again, this time to take my hostel's key. My room was located at the F6 blok, on the first floor, room number 37. Bilikku paling hujung yoh! This is creepy.

Oh, I met Zzah there, and we check our room together. Kami berjiran saja, while Betty and Juju's room was upstairs. Inda pulang jauh, at least we're in the same blok!

I went there with my brothers, Abang Azhar, Adik Arip and Asri. Aku driving, which I think is sooooo cool! Kami pergi ke The Mall, kan tengok wayang, ada yang siuk tapi mainnya akhir. So cancel. Kami main game arah arcade, lapastu bali barang makanan... then home! Simple! Hehe.

I'm tired...

2009-07-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

I... need... to... go... through... the... modules... again....

and again....

again....

*YAWN*

UBDian for real!

2009-07-26T16:01:00.002+08:00

I am officially an UBDian!!

And today mark my first day at the hostel. Wanna know what I feel?

OMG! I FEEL GREAAAAAAAT! AND FREE!

But.. I miss my family already. Well, not my room, not my house. I just miss the people in my house. It feels like I wanna bring them all here. LOL!

Now that I'm here, I feel lazy to tidy up. Hehe. Ya know what? I left my room untidy! Haha! Well after all, I'm just staying here for a day or two. Or maybe three.

It's time to move on... and create a beautiful memories...

OH I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS PLACE ALREADY!

Okay... that was.. a lil bit exaggerating... Hehe.

Another day..

2009-07-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

Hari ini aku pergi ke Empire bersama Zaim. Selepas itu kami pergi ke The Mall.

HAHAHA!
Aku curi gambarmu!

Kami tengok wayang, cerita hantu! Skrip 7707. Aku rasa cerita itu sangat lame tetapi AKU TERKAJUT SAJA! Haha!

Anyways, thanks for the ride dear friend! Soon lagi, will ya?

My hair

2009-07-24T18:16:00.001+08:00

Rambutku pindik......

And today shall be the last day... of me crying over you, dear. One day, if we meet again and you're asking how I'm doing... I'm going to say, "On the last day of us seeing each other, that was the last time I'm crying over you."

Fresher's Week.

2009-07-23T23:19:00.004+08:00

There's some changes for our Fresher's Week Programme.

No sports...
Nothing on Wednesday, 29th July...
Nothing on Thursday, 30th July morning till noon...
No Community Service...
No Cultural Night...
It ended on Wednesday, 5th August...

Yay?

But...

Monday, 27th July and Tuesday, 28th July will be full with briefing. From 7 AM until 5 PM. Great, no?

There's a probability that this one's gonna change too. I just hope it'll be great.

Cut this out.

So, today. I went to KB with my parents at noon. I need a new spectacle, my current spec is already blurred so I need new lens. Why in KB? Andang company kacamata kami se-family disana woh. Hehe. So, DISCOUNT! *Kirai-kirai* And I bought contact lens jua.

Not long after that we went to Soon Lee Sea View (sp?) and I bought some hostel needs. More pants, towels, some medicine, face soap...

I can't help but dazed off most of the time on our way to KB and back to Tutong.

I seriously think that I need to start packing and cleaning. Hmph.

At night, we as in my parents, my brothers Asri, Arip and Azhar and I went to the mosque to attend ceramah sempena Isra' Mi'raj dan tarus sembahyang berjema'ah. Hehe. It was very calm and peace, I feel very comfortable.. I don't feel like leaving at all... Rindunya aku kepadaMu, Ya Allah...

I've made up my mind... I'm leaving too, dear. Goodbye.

My room.

2009-07-23T18:04:00.002+08:00

BILIKKU MACAM KAPAL PACAH!
HAHAHAHA!

A long day.

2009-07-22T18:14:00.004+08:00

I was suppose to go to KB with my parents at 2.30 PM but then mom was a hour and 20 minutes late from the hospital for her checkup. And we can't go back home late as dad has some ceremony to attend later at the mosque. So, postponed! Or canceled? Don't know...

I woke up early this morning, at 8 or 9, went out of my room to reach my Abang Azhar, and dazed off a few minutes later in his so-called-room. HAHA.

Then at 10, I went to my room, feeling bored so I switched on my laptop. Something is wrong with her, I don't know how to explain, but my account from this laptop seems missing. Luckily I still can log in to it. Lazy to found out what's wrong, I just spend the whole morning surfing the internet.

I checked UBD website and found that the timetable for semester 1 was out. But I can't understand a thing. HAHA. And I'm not sure if that's for us.

I really need to confirm myself what to take as major and breadth module. Trust me, I haven't. I'll most probably take Mathematics as major... and I really want to do Korean Language for one of my breadth module. I doubted that though, for this semester, cause of the competition. But I'll definitely take those Korean Language within this 4 years. Hehe. Insya Allah.

When I switched my laptop for the second time today, the blue screen appeared and it did some scanning. Gosh it took a hour or so to complete scanning, but thank goodness my laptop recovered. My account is back baby! Wohoo!

So...

Yes, today is another long day for me.

Dazed off several time while watching TV. I can't help but feeling sleepy. And... bored.

Baju kurung ku sudah siap! Phew~

I'm expecting a calm night tonight. Why can't I have one?

Mind and Heart.

2009-07-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

"Just when I thought things are going to work out fine, it turned the other way round.
Just when I wanted to laugh and smile, I started to cry.
Just when I thought that I'll be strong, I felt so weak.
Just when I made up my mind about my life, I felt like dying.
Just when I wanted to stop thinking of you, I began to think of you even more.
Just when I thought all this is over, I immediately feel like starting over with you.

My mind never seem to agree with my heart.
I don't know how long it will take for me to heal.
I don't know if I can get through this.
And I don't know if I'm going to be okay."

I'm not just a human, I have feeling.

2009-07-22T01:29:00.003+08:00

Well, well.
If you haven't notice...

"I'm a human too baby."

I too have feelings.
A family.
A future.

I should have known that you're not a good guy.
I shouldn't have care.

This goes to a person I used to love as a friend and brother. You should know who you are boy.

Discontent... discontent...

2009-07-16T22:59:00.001+08:00

Today's highlight is going shopping with my parents at Bandar.

Wore this for the first time.
I love it.

Everything I do, everywhere I go, every single thing I saw, every now and then, I keep on thinking of you. Only you. I'll consider the next 4 years as a punishment dear. A punishment for not treating you well for the previous 4 years. Let's get back together after this 4 years of hell, please?

Hello, beautiful day!

2009-07-15T14:40:00.006+08:00

I woke up with the feeling of being beaten up.

I don't know what's wrong with me tadi subuh, at approximately 1 am. I woke up and was shivering like crazy! A part of me was screaming, and some part seemed crying, and other... I really feel like dying. My head was spinning, it was dizzying, my body felt weak, I can't catch up with my breathe... I almost... faint. It felt like it was the last moment of my life.

I'm glad you save the day, dear. And after all, the one that I would listen to.. is only you. Thank you, and sorry for the trouble.

I can't went straight to bed after that, but I felt better. I watch TV to ease my mind, and eat a pear to gain some energy. Drank a lot of water too.

I don't wanna be selfish, so, I'm keeping it cool with you now.

I went to bed right after I did my Subuh prayer and ate some chocolates. Hehe. I was sleeping on the floor instead of on my bed, but I feel comfortable.

And....... Woke up at 12 noon! Haha! Before I went to take my shower, I checked my Facebook on my mobile phone, and I received an inbox from Sha. I burst into my laughter reading the last bit of her text.

"As for me:
1. VISA RENEWAL
2. NO RETURN TICKET BACK TO BRUNEI
3. Meet JOHN-HOON at Gyeonggi Province
4. Meet my baby girl (Kim Soh-ra) & family-in-law at Kang-nam Apartment
5. ANOTHER WEDDING AFTER 2 YEARS"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Membual eh, dari kemarin ani wah. LOL.

And here I am now... feeling... bored? But I definitely feels better. I feel secure, yeah.

Until next time. Assalammualaikum.

They make me smile.

2009-07-14T23:01:00.001+08:00

I'm seeing my beautiful GFFs today!

Beginilah rupa kami tanpa make-up.

Okay, okay.
Let's see how it'd look like after I did a lil bit of editting.

Aigoo~ I need to work harder on my photoshop.

We have a lot of fun, and I wish to stay longer! Hehe.

Thanks for today, kamu dua! Aku sayang kamu!

XOXO.

14th July.

2009-07-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

Happy 15th birthday to my youngest brother, Asri.
XOXO.

What Do You Call This?

2009-07-12T22:57:00.004+08:00

When the weather gets better, will our relationship get any better too?

I promised to bring back the good old times we used to have, dear. If this is what we call love, I'm going to protect it. But if this is a one-sided love, there isn't anything that I can do...

I still believe in you, I still believe in your promise, and I still believe in our love.

Heartbreaking.

2009-07-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

Life is already difficult, why make it more difficult?

Maybe I deserve this...

But don't you think you're overdoing it dear?

Meet the cousins.

2009-07-10T22:36:00.005+08:00

I repeated my stupid sleeping disorder. Dazed off at 3, woke up at 11.

And I thought today is Saturday. When I was in my mom's room, seeing my mom laying in her bed, I was like, "Eh, inda mama sekulah? Damam kah?" And she laugh at me and said, "Hari apa kan ni? Juma'at jua. Kenapa kau?" Haha! Oh well, don't blame me. My everyday was like Sunday.

At 3 PM, me and my parents went to Tutong. Kan bali kain and tarus hantar arah kadai jahit, for kuliah. To our surprise, baju untuk Hari Raya pun siap udah, so... $$$$$$$. Urgh.

Bought a pant and a sport shoe. In case it's needed, so beli saja.

I'm addicted to kacang senyum. Senyum saja kerajanya, haha!

Home at 6. Oh, on my way home, Echa texted me, asking me to come out. So as soon as I reached home, tarus lepak sama Echa, Ecum, Mamat and Anis.

Anis is not in this picture, unfortunately.
L to R; Ecum, Mamat, Echa and me.

Inda batah atu, balik... Pasal Magrib. Hehe.

Aku malas kan liat Korean drama tonight.. See, I've lost my interest udah. Hmph.

Kata mama esok jalan lagi. Not so sure about it though.

I seriously need to work on my sleeping schedule.

Breaking my heart.

2009-07-10T00:56:00.003+08:00

Currently working on my to-buy list.

How does it feel, to live all by myself, well perhaps, with some friends for the first time?

I can't imagine how it feels like. I am all excited, nervous, scared, sad, unhappy, guilty.... A feeling that I can't explain.

But somehow, I can't wait to leave this place. There's just too much memory of you in here that it's killing me to bear all those pain... You.. How long are you planning to cut my heart? Do you want to break it?

Okay, to think that I'm going to spend a whole lot of money is... a bit... urgh. It makes me feel guilty.

Insecurity.

2009-07-09T03:16:00.004+08:00

It's 3 AM and I'm still wide awake. How long am I planning to keep this up?

Well honestly.. I don't plan this.

I just want to sleep and put aside this stupid feeling.

Best Lad.

2009-07-09T00:03:00.004+08:00

It's 9th July and I would like to say Happy Birthday to one of my best girl ever, Betty!

I miss the good all time..

Wishing you a great day, have fun dear! May God bless you and our friendship. May you be success in life, and be healthy! You're officially 20! Hehe!

A tiring day.

2009-07-08T23:52:00.001+08:00

Today's weather is unexpectedly fluctuating. Hehe.

Me and my friends were planning to go to UBD today morning. And stopped by at Giant for lunch, for celebrating Betty's birthday in advance. But my dad said it's better jalan sama Abang Azhar saja.

I don't want to disobey my parents, since I think I'll be busy for the next 2 weeks. And I'm most probably staying at hostel. I don't think I'll be able to see them more often, so for now, the thing that I should do is obey them.

So... the plan was cancel.

Instead, I went to UBD with Abang Azhar. We took off at 1.45 PM. Arrived there dalam pukul 2.30. But before that kami singgah Tutong, I need a copy of my identity card. Hehe. So... at UBD... We went to the International Office at first to take the module booklet, and filled in the survey. I find it difficult to choose my core/breadth module. Hmph. There's a wide of range of modules, we can pick from any other faculties. Interesting, right? And not to mention, headache too. Urgh.

Okay stop complaining!!

I took some time to fill in the survey then we went to the Hall to submit my letter of approval. Something like that lah. Hehe. After that, our last destination...Asrama! Hantar borang saja. And home!!

I realized something today. I need food, like lots of them. I didn't really eat much when I'm staying home, but now that I'm going here and there, I realized that I really really need foods!!

I'm relived that I get things done!

Let's pray for a good health from now on. Amin!

Thank You, Rain.

2009-07-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

At least I don't have to cry alone. The rain's with me.

This is just a beginning.

2009-07-07T23:00:00.005+08:00

The offer letter from UBD was available yesterday, but I can't make it to UBD because I'm not in the mood to go anywhere. I'm all excited kemarin atu, and I was a bit upset jua... Okay okay, putting that aside, today, we're suppose to attend a briefing at the Chancellor Hall.

I woke up late . It was 6.10 AM when I was finally awake. I'm blaming those more-than-half-a-year holidays! Hehe. Me and Abang Azhar took off from home at 6.50 AM, and arrived 30 minutes later (Abang Azhar was speeding, LOL!).

Finally, I met Betty! I haven't seen her since the last day of our school last year. Haha. Juju and Betty is always with me today! Hoho. P/S; Awu Sha, Betty makin berisi! LOL!

I saw quite a number of ex-SMSOnian faces.

Our temperature was being checked before we enter the hall. Mine was 37.3°. I can feel my skin getting hotter, but I don't feel sick pulang. I don't think I got fever, but those high temperature? What's with me?

So... The briefing was.. at first it was rather confusing.. But at the end of the day, I finally got a clear idea. It was interesting, the GenNext degree!

I got a lot of form to be filled in and to be submitted by tomorrow, cause you know. I don't really wanna go back and forth to UBD for too many times. I find it a burden. Hmph. I want to get things done in a day wah. Hehe.

I met my long lost friend there too, Jastina! I finally got to meet you. After like, 7 years? Woah.

Because of unavoidable reason, I have to follow Juju back home. P/S; Capi Azar ah! LOL! Betty was with us too. We went to Tutong for a while, and then straight away went to Juju's home. Not long after that, Abang Azhar datang aga aku. Hoho.

It was 3 PM when we arrived home, and I went straight to bed. I was exhausted!

It was almost 6 when I wake up. Damn it. Then... I spent some time with Baby Amirah, she's so active these days. Hehe.

At night, K-Drama. But I suddenly lost my interest in watching those. Hmph.

I'll have to make some list. Thing will get a lil bit busier, I hope I can stay well. Amin.

Dream Comes True. Alhamdulillah.

2009-07-06T20:48:00.005+08:00

Please click to enlarge.

Today, the name lists of admission of the new intake for UBD and UITB are finally out!

Sha and Juju love, celebrate soon? Hehe. Betty and Agnaes too! Hehe.

Others include Zaim, Adib, Faza, Shae, Suzy, Ilham, Mayyer, Zar, Zzah, Ryna, and the list goes on and on... So congratulation all!

Hi There, Sunday.

2009-07-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hello Sunday.

I slept very very late last night, and not to forget, I have trouble with sleeping. I think it's 3 AM when I finally dazed off.

Woke up pretty late too. 12 PM. Great, no? Hehe.

My afternoon... well at least I have a company. Memet, that is. But because I'm too weak (because I'm fasting again) I didn't really do things much but lay down most of the time. Hehe.

She got home early at 4 PM and I'm on a date with my laptop soon after that.

I was planning to watch Speed Scandal tonight, but Abang Azuan stole my laptop (because he's taking it from me without my permission, hence stole is the right word. LOL.) so I have no choice but to watch TV and have fun with my 3 brothers - Abang Azhar and my two younger brothers.

Lemme Know If I'm DEAD already.

2009-07-04T17:39:00.001+08:00

I haven't stepped out of my room since last night.

So whats up? I watched Slumdog Millionaire. Abang Azuan recommended me this movie like many many weeks ago. And Abang Azhar told me that it was a good story... So to kill both my curiosity and boredom, I'm watching it..

Guess what? TWO THUMBS UP!

It's my 5th day of fasting. Oh GOD, I feel like dying already! I don't feel good, gotta take a nap!

Off.

Sad & Boring Day.

2009-07-03T16:18:00.002+08:00

It's a sad day today. Oh I don't mean me, I mean the weather. Hehe. It's raining! And cold. Urgh.

And it's a boring day as well.

I don't remember doing anything productive. Urgh.

Bah. Off.

Big Number 3.

2009-07-02T17:38:00.004+08:00

Today mark my 3rd day of fasting. Hehe. I don't really feel good right now, as I failed to wake up for sahur.

I went to bed very late, at 2 AM. So that explained why I failed to wake up... Hm.. And I woke up at 10. Sha's text message woke me up. Hehe. I'm happy for you darling! *Kirai-kirai*

Nothing much happen today. I'm pretty much locking myself at my room. I lost my interest in reading and studying, for one solid reason of course. So I'm much likely going online and watch some movies. I feel lifeless again, urgh.

And later tonight, there won't be any difference from any other night. K-drama, heh!

Bah, off then.

You're Not Sorry.

2009-07-02T00:45:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry but I can't understand you. Do you expect me to understand?

You told me you love me, but you're not treating me right.
You told me you know that I love you so much, but you didn't seem to care.
You told me you got some problem, but why won't you share it with me?
You told me you have a lot to think of in mind, does that mean I don't have one?
You told me that you're sorry. It didn't seem that you mean it.

You know what? All this is a bullshit. You're being selfish there boy.

The thing that I'm positive of is that I'm all alone. In this cruel world. No one to hold on to. No one cares. No one, trust me.

I really want to run away.

I beg you dear, please fix this. Can't you see I'm going crazy?

I can't even smile a sincere smile... I can't even laugh like I use to... I can't even cry normally...

You're going to hurt me even more if you're saying your life is empty. It will make me an idiot. A total idiot.

Seriously, please fix this! I'm begging! I.. don't want our relationship to end.

Empire. Awesomeness!

2009-07-01T23:44:00.006+08:00

The 3 stooges, back in action! LOL!

I was surprised with the gift! Thanks kamu kamu. Sayang ku banar arah kamu ni! Hehe. I finally have SJ's 3jib. WOOT WOOT!! I'm sorry I didn't have any for kamu...

We arrived at the Empire several minutes before 3 PM. Thank goodness Sha booked the tickets earlier, otherwise I think we won't be able to watch the show comfortably. Aku inda expect ramai urang pun. Hehe.

We watched.... Transformer 2: Revenge Of The Fallen. It's awesome!!! WOOT WOOT!

After finished watching the movie, we strolled around the Empire. We watched the sunset together, ahh it was my first time ne!! Hehe. They snaped a lot of pictures, well I don't because I don't have a camera with me. Huh. I'll have one, SOOOOOOOON!!

At around 7, we went to JP to fill our empty stomach. Hehe.

And home sweet home at 9 PM.

More pictures here.

My 'little' thought.

2009-07-01T01:27:00.001+08:00

There's a lot of things in my mind that I want to forget. And there's a lot that I want to keep and remember. There's a lot of things that I wanted so much in life, and there's a lot that hated. There's many people that I want to love, and there's many that I wish I never met them.

This is how life works. I want to keep this in mind, but my heart refuse to take it.

I hate you.
I really hate you.

I wanted to mean those word to you. I want those word to became real. I really do.

But my heart, thought it ache so much, it keeps on loving you. Only you.

I don't know how long I'm going to cry... I don't know how many days I won't be able to sleep... I don't know if I can take any food... I don't know if I'm able to smile a sincere smile... I don't know... I don't know...

The thing that I know is... you don't love me anymore.

I hated this fact. Even long before I know you.

I've been in love before, several hurt me, and several, I hurt them. But I'm sick of those. I just wanted a sincere love, is it too much to ask?

I.. don't want to remember anything... I just want to lie there comfortably, and never made it back alive. I'm afraid of tomorrow. I'm afraid I'm going to break down again tomorrow.

You can go, and let my heart dies.

You can go happily, and make me bleed.

It'd be better if you just kill me, right here, right now. I.. can't take this pain anymore...

GFF's 3rd Years Anniversary

2009-07-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

"Happy 3rd Years Anniversary girls!
I'm glad I know you guys. I love you!"

Okay, we seriously looked young in that picture. Especially Sha. Hehe.